Olive Ruth Throckmorton | 10.23.2013

4:00am...I slept a bit better than I expected to, knowing the excitement that was coming all too soon.  But I woke up about an hour before my alarm was set to go off, and my mind started racing.  All the preparing, planning, and packing was done.  Besides getting dressed and packing up my toothbrush, I was left with nothing more to do.  It finally sank in.  I was having a baby today.  There were no more days left.  Barely even minutes.  Within hours we were going to be a family of 4.  Then it hit me.  I was having a c-section.  I was walking into the unknown.  I was immediately scared.  All the stuff was done, and all I was left with was a fear that I hadn't addressed.  So I did what everyone does when they are scared in the middle of the night... I got out my iPhone to distract me, of course.  

4:15...4:30...4:45...you wouldn't think there was that much to look at on a phone, but between instagram, Facebook, and twitter, it wasn't too difficult to just keep my mind occupied.  Then it hit me again.  The fear.  My alarm was about to go off.  This was about to get real.  

Pray was all I could do.  What I should have done 45 minutes ago.  As I prayed, Fear is surrounding me, God...I had no huge revelation.  Just a peace.  He simply calmed my heart with the words from this song;  "Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me, you've never failed, and you won't start now."  God wouldn't fail me.  I had nothing to fear because, no matter what happened that day, God would reign.

5:00...alarm.  Game time, Here we go...

You call me out above the waters

The great unknown

Where feet may fail

And there I find you in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed 

and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Welcome Olive Ruth, we already love you beyond words.

- Lyrics from: Oceans by Hillsong United